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A photo book by J Davies.
Available in Softcover or Hardcover limited edition.
“Half of my Whole Life Was Just a Dream presents a series of interconnected moments, people and places, linked by commonalities of colour, texture, time or feeling. J offers their lens to the viewer, and in doing so, a unique perspective on time and memory. Are the subjects of these images connected by something external, or is it simply a construction of the photographer’s mind? Would one or the other offer more truth?
J invites the viewer to question connection, and how the stitching together of disparate images might reflect a broader understanding of the passage of time. Subjectivity is at its centre; it is rare to be able to share in something as ephemeral as an artist’s internal workings, but through expertly transcribing their perspective into images, and tying these images to one another like a string of their own thoughts, J does just this.
This book is biographical in the dreamiest of ways, capturing queerness and community (friends, lovers, self) in ways that are simultaneously intimate and unknowable. Prepare to find yourself in these pages too, or some rippling reflection; perhaps in the richness of a certain tone or the twist of a certain body on a midnight dance floor. There is a breadth to these images that cannot help but entrance the imagination.”
120 pages.
200mm x 270mm
150gsm Silk Insides
Colour Indigo Printing
Perfect Bound
Printing: E-Plot (Melbourne, Australia).
Hardcover: First edition of 50, hand-numbered. ISBN: 978-0-6454066-4-1
Softcover: First edition of 150, hand-numbered. ISBN: 978-0-6454066-1-0
Photos by J Davies
Curation by J Davies + Abby Strangward
Design by Abby Strangward + Kitty Huang
Introduction by Violet de Graauw
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“When I started this project, I had a hard time just being here. Life can be so excruciating and nauseating and exhausting. But someday something changes, you live through something quietly, and you feel at peace. A lot of this book is me working through all these feelings. There are whole years I can tuck away quietly, and there are things that happened in between. I care about them all.
When I moved to Toronto, I started to photograph all the people I met through a friend - meeting up in Kensington, following sunlight, making conversation. It was a casual practice; a way of being somewhere and feeling like I was suppose to be there.
Over the next two years, some of the people I met became people I love. my focus shifted, got closer to home. I took photos of my friends frequenting the same neighbourhoods, sleeping in my bedroom, existing under firelight and still-water lakes; walking down empty streets and walking home together. the photos accumulated in my desk drawers, a box in my closet, on my phone. Taking a photo was an act of devotion - it kept me engaged in the feelings of loss and gratitude, handed me confidence, and made me feel real. or it made the world feel real to me.
When I moved away from the city, I was left with this handful of years all mixed up and bruised and gleaming. I thought if I could fit them back together I could find myself in there.
I pasted the photos in journals, made little directionless books. Marked them up all black and blue with ink. Bleeding out pen after pen to find a way of knotting words together. I don't say much out loud. I'm dependant on this to make me feel okay. I don't mind though. Flipping through my notebooks, I watched the words echoing across see-through paper. It clicked to me then how this book would come together.”
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252 pages featuring film photographs and journal pages
Open-stitch binding
Soft-cover
110mm x 148mm x 22mm
ISBN: 978-0-6454066-3-4
Printed in Canada.
Made between 2019-2022. Published independently by Sarah Berglund, 2023. Originally funded through Kickstarter. Supported and distributed by Pure Nowhere.
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For customers outside of Australia/New Zealand, you can grab a copy from Sarah’s website. Limited numbers available.
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