irrelevant / clearly / idk / weekend / will U

em glasser blurs the lines between poetry and song, photography and music.

here, she shares the lyrics to several of her original self-recorded songs, accompanied by her own photography
& short passages about the feelings and thoughts behind the writing of each one.

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irrelevant

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So maybe it's okay
that u have been gone since yesterday
I've been stuck in all this work
Need to cut down on them cuss words

So I'll be painting my nails
Clicking on those emails u sent
U say irrelevant
I got no time on my hands
Need to do my homework
Need to get essay- work done
I'll be doing my hair in the bathroom
Screaming in the shower
Thinking that maybe ur right
Ur sometimes just not up for fight
But it's hard for t me to believe that maybe we
Kind of funny don’t u think
I got my hands tied down to other things

So I'll be painting my nails
Clicking on those emails u sent
U say irrelevant
I got no time on my hands
Need to do my homework
Need to get essay- work done
I'll be doing my hair in the bathroom
Screaming in the shower
Thinking that maybe ur right
Ur sometimes just not up for fight

 

I can't really describe why I associate this image with Irrelevant. I just do. I wrote this song fast, and it’s quite short and in some way doesn’t make a lot of sense to me. Honestly, it’s just a bunch of thoughts put together in the hopes of some sort of closure. But it was the first ever song I uploaded, and I just remember feeling kind of unwanted at the time.

 
 

dear beloved

 

Dear beloved
I don’t give a shit.
Frankly Im not rly up for it
You’ve been going on about how u have so much wrong.
But maybe ur a little selfish.
I don’t wanna talk about it.
But im not the one talking.
Im just sitting there like a fool and u dont care.
Ur on about how ur having trouble picking clothes to wear.
Ive been wearing this t-shirt since Saturday.
Its Monday now and ur crying cause u got to little sleep.
Dear beloved I don’t give a shit.
Frankly i just wanna watch a show.
You’ve been going on about how u have so much wrong.
And I just wanna know what comes next

 

dear beloved has one of the happiest melodies out of all my songs, which is kind of ironic considering the fact I'm writing about how fed up I am with people talking to me about useless things. I think in those moments it's important to still listen, but I also think this is what we all have going through our heads. I remember at the time I had so much going on and some of my closest friends did too. It's just a letter to all those blurred faces.

 

clearly

 
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Don’t think you can cover it up with all that pain
Don’t think you can c im alright, they’re not alright
Im done with this
I don’t know
I think I might be sick

ive turned out to be some
Fake love baby
Don’t you know maybe.
Im alone all day and never save me.
I told myself I wouldn’t do these things anymore
A year ago, I was a little baby
And now sitting here thinking oh shit maybe.
I shouldn’t be here anymore.
and now im seeing things so clearly.

It doesn’t fog up my mind,
it only makes me think outside
And I know you I say somethings I shouldn’t
Who don’t deserve
Im done with this
I don’t know
I think I might be sick

ive turned out to be some
Fake love baby
Don’t you know maybe.
Im alone all day and never save me.
I told myself I wouldn’t do these things anymore
A year ago, I was a little baby
And now sitting here thinking oh shit maybe.
I shouldn’t be here anymore.
and now im seeing things so clearly.

 

This is a picture my best friend took of me. The opposite of something clear. Clearly - the song - is kind of all over the place, and possibly one of my favourites. I remember writing this after a party I went to; I saw a lot of things which surprised me, and I thought to myself, a couple years ago I would have never imagined being surrounded in all this. I would never have imagined I’d turn out the way I am.

 

unnecessary

 
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I never had a chance to tell you
Kinda feeling the loss u know how we do
We’ve been standing face to face only words won’t speak aloud our gaze
Desperate for other issues
U didn’t tell.
Me once I miss u
Gotta feeling that I’ve lost the taste to be around it us I miss ur taste.

Don’t tease, I've been under some stress.
I don’t say.
U know I've always been that way.
oh may
Be I don't think its necessary

U think I care of it honey.
I don’t say. U know i’ve always been that way.
Be I don’t think its necessary

Those words don’t say much to me
Ur only saying the things that got me
Ive been down from up on poppy
i told you to watch that movie

Its only been an hour maybe
And now I'm feeling eerie
I told you I wasn’t ready
Why u gotta be so pushy

Don’t tease, I've been under some stress.
I don’t say. U know I've always been that way.
oh may
Be I don't think it's necessary
U think I care of it honey.

I don’t say. U know I've always been that way.
Be I don't think it's necessary
Oh maybe I don’t think it's necessary
Oh maybe I don’t think it's necessary
Oh maybe I don’t think it's necessary

 

Unnecessary was pretty difficult to write. I went through an unpleasant situation which I guess really affected me. I didn’t want to write about it. Not at all. I was just confused as to how I felt and unnecessary was the first word that popped into my head. It's a very vulnerable song.

 

idk

 
 

Ill be sitting a meter away
If you need some help
Ill be feeling somewhat faded
U know I’m fine
I wanna be dreaming of a lie good bye
U wanna c why

but frankly I just wanna drink my tea
Be alone with me
Feeling like im not supposed be
Someone next me
Thinking bout it anyway
Ur still fine with yesterday
Been regarding all those yesterdays
I dont even feel ok
Think u gonna be ok
I down wanna leave today
i dont wanna be so far away

But tell me why
You thought it was a good idea to be so
Fine with it

And why
Do I just wanna leave it be
I just wanna leave it be

but frankly I just wanna drink my tea
Be alone with me
Feeling like im not supposed be
Someone next me
Thinking bout it anyway
Ur still fine with yesterday
Been regarding all those yesterdays
I dont even feel ok
Think u gonna be ok
I down wanna leave today
I dont wanna be so far away

 

Not much to say about this one. I was just needing some needed self-care and alone time. I added some crashing wave sounds. I wanted this song to feel like home, like Miami. Like I'm sitting by the beach and I’m safe.

 

will u

 
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Now baby u don’t need to complicated
I don't even think ur faded
U don't look like u can make it
Know maybe you don't even that I'm faded
But don't u think that I could make it
U never looked like you could make it

Don't you think were ready for a change
I think we're ready for change

Now I don't think ur by my side
I wouldn’t think u would be holding me tight
And know im screaming for a bigger goodbye

Now baby u dont need to complicated
I don't even think ur faded
U don't look like u can make it
Know maybe you don't even that I'm faded
But don't u think that I could make it
U never looked like you could make it

 

The song gives me this orangey vibe. Just felt that this image fit. I loved writing will u. Now that I look back on it. I'm not sure that I actually wanted this song to make sense. I wanted it to be confusing. I wanted people to interpret it in their own way. I had this one set of chords that I really wanted to use and I just sort of wrote this.

 

untitled.

 
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I'll be on the phone, don't you even know that
I'll be on the line
I'll be begging time
To keep you on the phone
Baby don’t you know
U don't need to go
Can’t u just say no

I didn’t know
How long it had been since I last seen you
I could have been a no
But I just knew that u were honest
I didn’t even see that it would be so hard for me
But now ur gone and just falling onto

I'll be on the phone, don't you even know that
I'll be on the line
I'll be begging time
To keep you on the phone
Baby don’t you know
U don't need to go
Can’t u just say no

 

Me and my friend took a bunch of photos of each other in her moms room, and I just like that this picture feels cozy. I feel like it somehow fits the song. I got bored of playing guitar and I started trying out some beats instead; this turned out in the end. I remember I just really wanted someone. Wrote a song about cliché phone calls I’ve never had. But if I did, I just know I wouldn’t want the person to leave.

 

weekend

 
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it kinda seemed distant when u told me
and then we’d be talking bout it only
I thought that maybe we could cook some dinner together on the weekend

Maybe I’m just curious about you
Ur kinda fooling around with me
I thought that maybe we do it whenever on the weekend

I'm fool for thinking honey, that you'd stay
and I’m just holding onto the fact that u made it yesterday
And I'm the only one who cares
So why am putting up with all my tears
Just a moment ago I thought that id back in this state

And now contemplating my decisions
Maybe just thinking bout revision
I thought that maybe we could be alone together on the weekend

I'm fool for thinking honey, that you’d stay
and I’m just holding onto the fact that u made it yesterday
And I’m the only one who cares
So why am I putting up with all my tears
Just a moment ago I thought that id back in this state
Im fool for thinking honey, that you’d stay
and I’m just holding onto the fact that u made it yesterday
And I’m the only one who cares
So why am I putting up with all my tears
Just a moment ago I thought that id back in this state

 

I thought of a colour right after I wrote this song. I thought of blue. I'm super happy with the way this song turned out; I just tried out this one progression and I was in love with it. I actually didn’t want to write a song but once I recorded my guitar I couldn't stop. I was thinking about this guy a lot and I guess all the things I had to look forward to with him. After a couple days, I made a lyric video, too.